Holidays have already started for me and haha, this is really the first time in quite a few months i get into the blogging mood to type something down here. Previously it has always been either im too tired or too busy, so everything was kinda in a hurry.

Hah,everything is peaceful now. Well peaceful in the sense im not always rushing here and there; missing out all the little things in life. It's been some time already and i think i really do feel more serene now. ASEAN has ended and ive been coping well with my emotions.

The weather has been quite hot lately. So holling up in an air-conditioned room is kinda cool when you really need to study. Math is a killer. Today is a home alone day. And I enjoy the time alone, with music of course.You concentrate better when ure alone; although more thoughts come to you when ure alone, you clear them faster and better when ure alone too.Night time is not the same, cos night time it's usually sadder. I dunno why but it is. I miss some people, some things and some feelings. You can't have it all,haha. Yup, you can't.

It has been slow moving for me today and i liked it. haha, everything in a pace slower than usual. I would want this kinda life. Although I think exciting days, with all the hype and craziness is cool too, I think a slower pace life is one that i wanna have, eventually. But not sure when is eventually though.

And one thing i have to say, the sky is really beautiful. Totally random but true.

"All the sudden, I realised that some time after that night at some unknowable point along the way, I had grown up."

You can't grow up in one night, it took more than just days and months, and it's still ongoing. You feel the pain, but pain is good ( i really do agree).

So bear with it and move on. "If you're going through hell, keep going", because if you don't move on, you'll still be stuck in hell.

And after all that I've done, I know and I gotta know that "move on" is the word. Oh well, these moments ain't hell either. I'll keep my own words in mind and believe me or not, I am thankful of the moments ive had for the years of my life, good or bad. Because they lead to one another, and i can't afford to forsake either of them.

I thought perisisting would help. But there's a difference between being persistent and stubborn I realised. I'll share with you guys here:

Persistence: It is the quality of persevering toward a clear goal in the face of obstacles and difficulties that inevitably arise. Persistence requires you to remain flexible regarding the means of attaining the goal. You always keep your eye on the ball and you have a clear direction of where you are going. But you are willing to turn and try out a varietry of ways to get there. And most importantly, you never give up.

Stubbornness:It is going in the same direction despite there is overwhelming evidence against you. You try to make something work taht is obviously unworkable. You are simply not realistic or honest with yourself and the situation.

So you see the difference.

But given a chance, i would still wanna change all these. The situation that i am in now isn't right. I will, but it will be after when all these is over. I hope it will still matter then, so i can bring about that change i want. I think i am not sure what i am writing now..oh well, it's clear in my head. If that helps.

Haven't seen the moon in quite a while and i love my life and the people in them=)

Settle down now and sit with me
Let me tell you how this all came to be
A yellow flower with your petals to the air
And flying on paper wings that brought you here
Summer rolls on in the lazy hours
An ether dream way
Of hummingbirds and clouds
Midnight swims in the cool back waves
And you in my arms as it rolls away

Little dandelion
Let your heart keep time
Now the clouds are gone
All of your tomorrows shine
All of your tomorrows shine
All of your tomorrows shine

Labels: Even so i was aware that nothing lasts forever

Holidays have already started for me and haha, this is really the first time in quite a few months i get into the blogging mood to type something down here. Previously it has always been either im too tired or too busy, so everything was kinda in a hurry.

Hah,everything is peaceful now. Well peaceful in the sense im not always rushing here and there; missing out all the little things in life. It's been some time already and i think i really do feel more serene now. ASEAN has ended and ive been coping well with my emotions.

The weather has been quite hot lately. So holling up in an air-conditioned room is kinda cool when you really need to study. Math is a killer. Today is a home alone day. And I enjoy the time alone, with music of course.You concentrate better when ure alone; although more thoughts come to you when ure alone, you clear them faster and better when ure alone too.Night time is not the same, cos night time it's usually sadder. I dunno why but it is. I miss some people, some things and some feelings. You can't have it all,haha. Yup, you can't.

It has been slow moving for me today and i liked it. haha, everything in a pace slower than usual. I would want this kinda life. Although I think exciting days, with all the hype and craziness is cool too, I think a slower pace life is one that i wanna have, eventually. But not sure when is eventually though.

And one thing i have to say, the sky is really beautiful. Totally random but true.

"All the sudden, I realised that some time after that night at some unknowable point along the way, I had grown up."

You can't grow up in one night, it took more than just days and months, and it's still ongoing. You feel the pain, but pain is good ( i really do agree).

So bear with it and move on. "If you're going through hell, keep going", because if you don't move on, you'll still be stuck in hell.

And after all that I've done, I know and I gotta know that "move on" is the word. Oh well, these moments ain't hell either. I'll keep my own words in mind and believe me or not, I am thankful of the moments ive had for the years of my life, good or bad. Because they lead to one another, and i can't afford to forsake either of them.

I thought perisisting would help. But there's a difference between being persistent and stubborn I realised. I'll share with you guys here:

Persistence: It is the quality of persevering toward a clear goal in the face of obstacles and difficulties that inevitably arise. Persistence requires you to remain flexible regarding the means of attaining the goal. You always keep your eye on the ball and you have a clear direction of where you are going. But you are willing to turn and try out a varietry of ways to get there. And most importantly, you never give up.

Stubbornness:It is going in the same direction despite there is overwhelming evidence against you. You try to make something work taht is obviously unworkable. You are simply not realistic or honest with yourself and the situation.

So you see the difference.

But given a chance, i would still wanna change all these. The situation that i am in now isn't right. I will, but it will be after when all these is over. I hope it will still matter then, so i can bring about that change i want. I think i am not sure what i am writing now..oh well, it's clear in my head. If that helps.

Haven't seen the moon in quite a while and i love my life and the people in them=)

Settle down now and sit with me
Let me tell you how this all came to be
A yellow flower with your petals to the air
And flying on paper wings that brought you here
Summer rolls on in the lazy hours
An ether dream way
Of hummingbirds and clouds
Midnight swims in the cool back waves
And you in my arms as it rolls away

Little dandelion
Let your heart keep time
Now the clouds are gone
All of your tomorrows shine
All of your tomorrows shine
All of your tomorrows shine

Labels: Even so i was aware that nothing lasts forever